You know sometimes you get the feeling that you are exactly where you are meant to be at a certain moment in time?
That’s precisely how I’ve felt for the past few days.
I had planned three days away at this time for a while. Not for any reason other than the kids could be with their Dad because he was on holidays and it was a great opportunity for some time away.
I realize now, that this time at the close of 2014 was actually time for me to reflect on the year that was, and get a game plan together for the coming year.
I try not to be too sentimental about the New Year. Last year I resolved to be more Cuban. I knew I was never going to stick to a resolution like giving up drinking or wanking so I vowed to adopt a Cuban way of life.
Joie de vivre and dolce vita kinda stuff.
Did I succeed? I don’t know.
2014 has been the year of survival, not cigars and hedonism, although I did imbibe a fair whack of rum.
When I arrived to that there little enclave in Bundeena my hostess at the Bundeena Bed and Breakfast, Uta, let me know she does Kahuna massage and energy healing.
I knew immediately that I was exactly where I needed to be at that precise moment.
I had landed on her doorstep and I’ve been thinking for ages I needed to clear my energy of everything it was holding on to from the last 12 months in order to move forward and not be tied down to any negative thoughts of feelings left over from the year that was.
When I put up a picture of the beach on Facebook one of my peeps said that my life is pretty wonderful. I have to agree.
I’ve had some fairly stinky pants stuff happen this year but I’ve also experienced a lot of truly magical happenings.
Some amazing people have come into my life, and I have received much love and support, both personally and professionally.
My children are both happy and healthy, and career wise, everything is going where I want it to go.
It was November last year that I realised I needed to become financially independent and I have been fortunate enough – lucky enough – to have made it happen by being resolute about what I wanted and taking the steps required to make it happen.
I do have a charmed life, but charm is the same as luck. You create it for yourself. It doesn’t come and knock on your front door while you eat Extreme Cheese Doritos on the couch.
I said yes to the Kahuna massage (think Hawaiian, spiritual, body sliding or something) and the energy healing.
I went into a room and shed all of my clothes.
Being naked with a stranger can be confronting but there is also something powerful about stripping off layers until you are left bare.
I shed tears with a stranger, who is now my friend, and we said goodbye to fear and anger and anxiety and we filled the cavity those feelings inhabited with golden light.
“Somewhere over the Rainbow” sung by the big gorgeous Hawaiian guy, Israel Kamakawiwo’ole, came on, and it reminded me of my wedding video. That song was on it as footage of us getting ready played and our guests got on the bus… I thought of that day and how beautiful it was, and I let go of my sorrow right there in the room.
Whether or not you believe in energy healing is not relevant, whether you believe in chakras, or Divine spirit, or any of that ethno-bongo mumbo jumbo hairy armpit stuff (neither of us had hairy armpits FYI) doesn’t matter a squat.
Imagine instead the power of allowing your conscious mind to look at the baggage you’re holding and give yourself permission to set it down gently and with love so you be free of the shit that weighs you down.
You can’t fly high in the sky if you are shackled to the ground.
2014 was the year of survival, so I’ve chosen for 2015 to be the year of happiness.
I will not make resolutions like getting fitter, drinking more wheat grass, or eating less bacon, but instead I will be resolute.
2015 has my name on it.
I think it should have your name on it too.
You just need to put it there.
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